The stress of all of this is just killing me. Now that I've told him that I'm leaving and after all the BS we've been through he is treating me so good; doing all this stuff around the house but we aren't talking so I guess I shouldn't say that he is treating me so good huh. I know in my head that I NEED to leave if I'm ever going to figure this thing out. I've been thinking back of when we had a really nice intimate moment that didn't involve drugs or alcohol and it's only been one time in 4months and it wasn't anything I would just jump up and down over. Sounds mean I know and I'm sorry. I keep telling myself that only time will tell I just worry so much about my children and how I don't want to hurt them but my oldest has to sense something. Someone explain to me why in the world would my 5year old say to me "you better not marry another boy mommy or I'll beat your but". No one that I know of has or should've said anything about me being with another man. This makes me wonder if he's heard his dad say to someone else something like that. I don't talk about any of this around him and plus there is no other man in the picture. This worries me alittle. So of course now he's not doing any drugs and seems to be going out of way but why now. Why is it that since I told him I was leaving he wants to do everything right??? I just really need some support today PLEASE!!!